Stress, it will kill you

I'm feeling it. 

I can't take it.

She's telling me (legal aid) that I have to get a lawyer. 

I wish I had the money.

I can stop the whole divorce proceedings, he would have to agree to that and I don't think he will. 

Besides, I don't really want to.  The lies on top of lies on top of lies.  I just don't know him any more.  I'd never believe he'd do this to me, to us, ever.  If someone had told me ten years ago, we'd be here, I wouldn't believe them. 

I have to tell her by tomorrow what I'm going to do. 

So much easier said than done. 

I need a lawyer.  :(