Panic mode.

Feel like I'm going to throw up.  :(

Don't know what I'm going to do.

Going to try finding the lawyer that said he'd take $500 until I can pay the rest. Paperwork is somewhere.

Where I'll find that money is a good question.  My sister cut me off when I said she didn't raise my children.  She has no clue about raising children. I wish she'd had her own. There's giving advice and there's sitting up all night with sick babies. Staying up late when they have a lot of homework. Cleaning up everything at 3:00 am. Then there's everything else.

Stress. Ugh.  I am on the edge about to fall off.  :( I'm feeling it.  :(