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Band has kept us busy! Now he’s attempting to do drumline. I have to borrow money from my sister for him to join it but she said she’d happily pay half. I’m not even asking his Dad for anything. I’m so disappointed in the man he turned into. Last year, he put $20 in a Birthday card and mailed it to him. That’s it. No Christmas gifts for any of them. He only sent the older kids texts on their birthday.

Of course, it’s my fault that they don’t talk to him. What’s funny is, I know it’s not my fault. I loved him so much, I never dreamed I’d get to the point I am at now. I didn’t talk bad about him, I encouraged them to see him. He stopped asking to see any of them two years ago.

Anyway, onward and upward we go. I love these kids so much, I’d die for them.

I would love to do so much more for the boy. I can’t because I just don’t make that much. He’ll have a decent Christmas, I just really like to surprise them when they’re still under 18. Sometimes it even happens when they’re older than 18. :) He will get enough though. There are certainly children out there that will get less than he will. I’m just frustrated because this is the time we were waiting for. When we’d both be working and we could take vacations and have some nicer things. Spoil the boy a little here and there. I do what I can when I can.