Alone

My biggest fear. I don't want to be alone.

I also don't want to be a burden to anyone. :(

Holidays, any holiday with memories attached to them, are still hard. They bring up memories of family time and fun times traveling together.

The realization that I'd get to visit my Mom more if he hadn't left us. We could have bought a nice new car together.

I miss my mom so much it hurts. I love her so much. I miss my family too. I miss the way we used to be.

Darn memories.