Exhausted...

Drove A to her heart check up today. Great hospital. It's on the campus of the University of Michigan, such a beautiful town, traffic is so busy there, I was so happy to get back home tonight. Stressful, I'm not good with changing lanes and getting in the correct ones and there's three or four major highways that are traveled on to get one way. My ex always used to do the driving for her check ups.

I have a check up in the morning, I dread the scale, I'm sure I've had too many cookies these past few weeks. Oh well. I can't help it if I'm a good baker right?

My sister wants us all to be at my Dad's birthday party but that's not going to happen. E knows mine and A's checks will be smaller next month so he doesn't want to miss work. Koda is not old enough to stay with someone. No one asked me when it would be good for us. They'll get me and A and Z. I know his birthday is in January, his party is closer to my birthday than his. I'm not jealous, I just wish my family would have considered when it'd be good for us too.

I'm over tired and dreading and stressing tomorrow.

I got each of the kids 3 gifts. A and E got each other 4 each. My sister sent us each a gift too. Taking Z shopping tomorrow. I can tell he doesn't want to go shopping but I think he should.

We have not heard anything from their Dad since last Christmas. Nothing. We are thinking it's because of the birthday party his sister tried to plan last January. The kids don't want that woman in their life. It's not my choice, it is theirs. I have even suggested just meeting her to try and have a relationship with their Dad and they said no. They'd like to see him but they don't want to see her.

I'd better get some sleep. I'm already used to sleeping in.