Feeling alone. Even if he'd just communicate with me about the boy but I got nothing.  I know he's gone forever, I get that. I'm done.

I put the divorce papers in the mail to the sheriff yesterday. After he gets them he has 21 days to respond. If he does not respond, the lawyer said That would be good. So, hopefully, the sheriff can serve him the papers. It's costing me money I really don't have but I had no one else to do it.

Work is going okay. I'm getting anxious for my new job to start. I could use the money and I'm looking forward to the changes.

I have not contacted him. I know they think I tell lies. I do not nor have I ever lied to him. I don't think people that lie have very good morals. I like to think I have good morals. I now know that he lacked them and that makes me sad.  We surely had some wonderful times together.

This is a bit scattered. I'm feeling a little lost tonight.

So much to do, so little time.