Poor Z. He's missing his Dad. His Dad hasn't asked to see him since June. He blames me for that. Z knows the truth. I've never turned K down. Just because Z doesn't want to know his girlfriend, it's like  he's punishing him.

We will see I guess. Celebrating Z's birthday a few days before his birthday. I'll invite K but I'd be shocked if he shows up.

I almost hate to invite him because he'll try to make Z spend time with her. If things were different then I wouldn't mind. But things are not different.

He can't get excited about Christmas either. *sigh* I don't know how to make it special for him.

I'll try. It's hard because I have to work and I hardly see him. I need to make my days off count more. Somehow.

I'll get this....