Sometimes I find myself  doubting myself. :(

I've thought and rethought and thought again.

I talked to Z tonight. I asked him if it was me holding him back from meeting her or does he really not want to right now. He said he's not ready. I told him that was fine. I reminded him his doctor thought waiting was a very good idea. Waiting a long time he said. Ken wouldn't know because he hasn't been to one of zs appointments in over two years.

I've never denied Ken seeing his son. If he tries sneaking the home wrecker in again, he won't recognize the mama bear he's going to see.