I miss..

Being married.  Not to what he became, but what we had for so long.  So very long.

I miss recapping the day at bedtime with someone.  Talking out the good, funny and stressful things.  I have no one to do that with now. 

I miss cooking dinner for someone that appreciates it.  Half the stuff I like to make, they don't eat, so I don't make it. 

What's a girl to do. 

I'm not looking for anyone.  I don't want to bring anyone into the boys life that could walk away.  I don't want them to parent him either, he's just about grown. 

I just miss what I had. 

I wouldn't mind finding someone, someday but right now, that seems like it will never ever happen again for me. 

Speaking of being married, er not being married, the big surprise party was this weekend.  K's sister invited the kids to that party.  E responded to her.  He told her how they feel about K's gf.  Oh good lord! She came back at him with stuff that I could not believe.  Stuff like if he needs to get away from here, he can go there, she will talk to him, etc.  ???

Oh and he doesn't understand what happened. 

Right. 

I'm the bad guy. 

I'm the awful person. 

I need a vacation.  :(

As of Tuesday we are owed almost $900 in child support.  Frustrating.