My boy

I always loved to surprise my kids on Christmas.  I'd still like to surprise the boy. He's been being treated for his anxiety for five years now. Before treatment he was a shell of a person. I truly can't explain the torture he went through in his head. To have nightmares every time you close your eyes. To be afraid to use the bathroom alone. To be afraid of sudden loud noises each and every time they are heard. There's more but that paints a good picture of him.

He's got an expensive electric drum set on his list. We can't get that but the kids are shocked he'd put it on there. I'm not. Then he has another item that would work with his guitar. That's almost 100 dollars. I talked to him about these items, told him probably not for Christmas but I'd try after we get going here. It will depend on my tax refund.

My big kids are shocked.

He's only really enjoyed Christmas the past 4 years. Soon he'll be grown up. I wish they could see that. He has so much talent and determination. He's so smart.

So yes my boy! Dream and dream big!! :)

Just a vent. Wish they remembered their dreams and what we tried to do for them. I don't expect them to buy those things but I do wish they'd allow him to dream and keep reaching for the stars.