I give up.

I'm disappointed in me because I make this happen for him. 

I was so happy he was willing to go to Disney with band.  I thought it'd be like a dream for him.

I just can't. 

I can't pay my bills, so I can't do that on top of that. 

Then there are the repairs my car needs. 

But darn it.  :( 

*sigh*

Talked to Friend of the Court today.  They claim they were waiting for me to call.  They said if I don't agree to court we go. 

F&^%

Not what I wanted to hear, not what I deserved to hear.  I feel like she lied to me.  Whatever.  I'll get my proof he's a crappy father and see what happens in court I guess.  I don't know what else to do. 

It's not that I don't want more money, I don't want him not to see him, he doesn't want to spend time with his girlfriend.  I can't get that without going to court.  I don't even know if they will agree with that.  He's almost 15.  I wish he was older.