Phew!

He wasn't there but he is going to be mad.  

He will probably hold money back from me once he gets those papers too.  That will be hard but we will just have to muddle through.  We shall see.  

I got a letter from legal aid today.  I have to go to their next clinic.  A pro bono lawyer will be there to listen to my case.  I have to take proof that we owe for the house and have other debts together.  I had to pay all the back taxes.  I don't want to pay any he is going to owe.  I know he didn't file last year.  That's why they garnished his bank accounts.  They were taking his Michigan income tax return the past few years.  When he didn't file, they had no "payment" toward his debt, so they went after it.  I'm just glad they didn't touch my account.  I'm going to take myself off that joint account.  

So, on July 23 I am going to that clinic.  

This won't be something to celebrate or happy about.  The thought of it makes me very sad. 

I'm not telling my best friend because she will tell my sister. I used to be able to tell her anything, now I feel I can't.   

I'm not telling my younger sister because I don't want to. I feel she talks to me like I am a child. 

I will tell my older sister, but I will tell her it's just between us.  I have friends I will tell too, I need some sort of support system.  

I miss him, but he did hurt me. To the core. Just like I loved him. 

Will I ever move on?  Maybe. If the right person comes along. They are hard to find.