She's doing it again....

Saying I'm not moving on because I haven't filed for divorce yet.

I thought this was my life.  A little crappy right now, but my life.  It could be worse.

Oh sure, a person could argue, she just wants what is best for you.

She complained today that I told her that Ken left me over a text.  I just couldn't talk about it out loud.

I really loved him.  I loved him so much, too much I guess.

Is there anything wrong with my time?  I'm trying.  I had gotten information on how to file for free.  I hadn't told her, but I want to do it myself.  I don't want her bragging that she got me to do it.

Like she bragged she stopped us from buying a house.  My family told H that when they went up north.

I shouldn't talk to her.

She just makes me feel crappy.  Like a hill billy.  Like I have no f*cking clue.

Hanna, Amanda and I went to the Walmart yesterday.  It's the only place I can afford my medicine from.  We had gotten a few groceries and went to the U-Scan registers.  We waited for a free register and when one opened we started walking over to it.  There was a long line in back of us, so there was no turning back by the time Hanna had seen Ken and his girlfriend just a few registers away.  I had looked right past them.  I turned my back to them, I didn't want to see either one of them.  I proceeded to shake so hard, but kept on my task of checking out.  Hanna said, she ran out the door! Ken finished scanning his stuff, paid for it and booked out the door himself.

On our way to the car, we noticed they were parked close to us.  I assume they got there first because I didn't recognize the new car that he was putting his stuff into.  I just went around to my car and put my things in.  They left before us, he drove around to another exit so we wouldn't be in back of them.

He freaking bought her a car.

I am so done.

I just want to do this myself.