Me

Ugh.

I have this class I hate. It's a PE class where we are learning CPR and how to use an AED and other first aid techniques. I thought I'd like it, but I H.A.T.E. it. It totally puts me out of my comfort zone, which college does in the first place, but then add this class to the mix and you have one nervous person!

So, there are these "students" in the class. They are not students like the rest of us, they are learning to actually teach the red cross class. They are the ones that test us on the CPR, AED, etc. I have no problem with people teaching me that are younger than me. I ask my kids for advice all. the. time.! But when they talk down to me, I can't take it. I think it's wrong. It's the way I was raised and it's what I believe. I don't tolerate it from my own children.

Yesterday, we were being tested on child CPR and using the AED (automated external defibrillator) and it was a long test. It was not my turn, I was waiting for a dummy to open up. Someone was testing a couple of feet away. The person giving the test was sitting on the floor with her foot touching the dummy. Out of reflex, I said, "Oh, your foot is touching is the child." I wasn't trying to be funny, I was very tired and just did it as a reflex as they have drilled these rules into us many many times. Oh my, she got so mad at me! She said give me your folder! I said "What?" She said louder in a very angry voice and her teeth clenched "Give me your folder!" I asked "Why?" She said "You are not allowed to interrupt testing and you did and now you get a point deducted!" I said (yes I was getting upset at this point) "I'm sorry, I didn't know, I didn't mean anything by that." She said again "Give me your folder." So I did and I don't think she knew where to take a point off because she's not a teacher! She gave it back and said "Here, I will let it slide this time, but don't let it happen again!." In case you didn't know, she was trying to make the girl get a point off by touching the dummy. I thought (afterwards) that was sneaky. It is nerve wracking taking these tests. We have between 12 and 24 steps to follow in order and we have to get 80% to be certified.

Anyway.....

Ouch. I wanted to cry. It makes me want to cry now. I felt so stupid.

Sometimes I don't know if I'm cut out for this. I really don't.

Did I mention, I hate this class?

Oh and I was making a real life friend and now I fear she thinks I'm nuts. Isn't that great?

Darn it.